I've always had a problem with the various myths about creation. Especially, those claiming creative just create beautiful things without any practice or hard work. That's a load of trash. Leanardo Da Vinci didn't finish some frescos because he spent so much damn time in planning and never found a designed he liked. A lot of creativity it trying really hard for a long time until you think well maybe possibly what you just made is good. God created the world and said it was good. People create and they say, "Ah, hell this shit is acceptable." Maybe that's what eating the apple from the tree of knowledge did to us, robbed us of our confidence. Adam saw his dick hanging out and he thought, "This thing is gross, I gotta cover it up with something."

It could be that some people are able to crank out beautiful things without working at it, but I am incredulous about such people. No matter what it seems like people, even the great geniuses of history, that while they may have has some natural ability they still had to work hard to achieve a stage where it could be used. Mozart is often credited with knowing full well that he could effortlessly make the most incredible music of his time. He was clearly a genius, but there's also the fact that he spent years and years studying music as a child under his father, and even more after that.

Clearly, I am jealous of the ability of others to create and perhaps instead of sitting here pondering other peoples misconceptions about creativity I should you know just start doing it. There something tough about getting it going. I think that creative people eventually get more comfortable with learning how to turn it on when necessary or at least understanding their personal process of creativity. I just don't feel like I have anything to start with yet, so I just keep filling my head with things. Things which may not lead me in any particular direction, and hell it might just be making the whole process harder. Yet again, I may just be better of doing it rather than constantly trying to get ready to do it.

The creative process sucks and I may never figure out how to get myself rolling in the right direction.